CAPTAIN UNDERPANTS
MY HEART SINGS
andrea
18Oct
THE COUNT.
I really have no idea why I'm at this stage...
REEVALUATING everything around me.
like with whom do i have my heart to heart talks now. [not many, or none nowadays]
Troubling, somesort.
I chose this, to avoid, thinking all i had to do was call God whenever I needed to talk to.
That i don't need to talk to a friend or anything.
Then I read galatians about how brothers should share their burdens with each other and all..
To you whom I want to share with, I can't, for many unforgettable reasons why, and now it's awkwardly weird saying anything.
To the other I want to share with, I can't, for reasons i'm not going to devulge.
and To another, then again makes me reconsider if I'm just going to look like a whiney fool wanting attention.
Asking God if I'm the one who pushes? Is it my silly mind always being critical of just how my friendships go.
Not a good track record to begin with, but i know He's taken that worrying past away, and now I'm faced with new thoughts.
I think this weekend away, would be great though, for 2 months too.
It's an opportunity away from it all to let me clear my mind.
It can't possibly be my exams clouding my mind.
Is it irrationality?
How are good friendships ever justified? everyday contact? or plain-when i'm in need i call you?
But on the positive side:
I'm fever-free, [being unkind to my health by being up at this un-godly hour], but still croaky in the throat though..
I will NOT be MOVED - Natalie Grant.
I have to take a stand. A stand on my friendships. Heartaches, whatever, I really need to leave it to God.
I'm sorry to those whom I've not been able to share with, not that I don't, but i really am not comfortable with sharing too much personal stuff. Sorry. really... xoxo♥you know you love me 12:58 AM
